Zig rubbed his temples, sighing in frustrating, his brain finally realizing reality. When she said she had to do that with Owen, he got an even worse feeling because he didn’t hear of them two talking very much anyone. Zig was already putting in his mind what he was going say to Tori, and he already see the hurt in her face. What was he going to do after that? He couldn’t live at her house anymore. Then Zig remembered the place Bianca told him about, which he rejected just because he was upset with Bianca. Now he would go, because it was the smart thing to do, and he had no where else to go. This could be a turning point for Zig, that place could help him get away from his parents once and for all. It would all work out, but first lots of things had to be resolved.
When she said he was better off with Tori, he automatically opened his eyes and turned his head towards her. “No, No Bianca.” Zig shook his head in disagreement a couple times, not believing that was true at all. Then he closed the gap between them once again, resting his hand on her hip, slowly moving his hand up and down the sides of her body soothingly. “I don’t care about about any of that. All those challenges and baggage you have we can get over together.” Zig said with much passion, looking into her eyes with all the sincerity in the world. He meant every word he said and wanted her to know that. “I want you Bianca, okay?” Zig leaned in to kiss her nose tenderly, then leaned his forehead up against hers getting lost in her eyes. Just being close with her made him sure of what he wanted.
Bianca struggled to meet Zig’s eyes as he turned his head toward her. Reluctantly, she did as he shook his head, disagreeing what what she’d said. She gathered her strength to look at Zig, her heart beginning to pound at the way his eyes held so much certainty with what he was saying. If her ego hadn’t been so blown from past experiences, she would’ve immediately believed him. The cynical side of her wanted to shake off his words, chalking them up to a young teen consumed with puppy love. But with every touch and reassurance that transmitted from him, she felt herself easing, bit by bit. She stared back into his eyes, the corner of her mouth turning into an out of character, shy smile. “Okay,” she said simply, trying to believe into existence what Zig was saying to her. She leaned in to place a tender kiss on his lips, pulling backward and continuing to gaze at him. “You’re a mess, you know that right?” she teased, referring to the reckless abandon with which he’d expressed his lingering feelings for her.
She thought for a moment about Zig’s situation, knowing that with this complication, he’d probably get kicked out of Tori’s house. She thought for a moment before speaking. “I have a feeling you’ll be homeless after you tell Tori. You…you can stay here for as long as you need. I’m actually trying to find an apartment right now. I can’t go back to living with my auntie. Things have gotten way worse there. So… I don’t really have anywhere to go, either.” She wasn’t sure if it was appropriate to offer him a place to stay, with her, so soon after everything had barely happened. But she wasn’t going to let Zig remain homeless, either.
Zig couldn’t be happier when she said this wasn’t a one time thing, but he would cherish it like it was anyways. You could never tell what Bianca was thinking or feeling, because she didn’t make it obvious. But there were little hints you could see or hear that gave you a pretty good idea. There was no stopping the smile on his face, “Really? I’ve been wanting to do that since….well forever to be honest.” Zig was surprised to hear she wanted to do that for while, considering she seemed to be head over heels in love with Adam and Owen. Zig thought back to the first time he hung out with her, under the stairs trying to get away from class. That was the first time he realized he had feelings for her, and hid it ever since for the sake of both of them. That seemed like such a long time ago, and things had changed a lot from then. At this moment, for the better.
His face and heart dropped when she mentioned Tori, removing his shifted from her eyes not looking at her. This whole time he had not thought about Tori since he kissed her, his mind being filled with only Bianca. Suddenly a rush of guilt ran through his veins, and he let go of the grasp he had on Bianca and laid on his back looking at the ceiling with a immense sigh. “Yeah…I have to work that out.” Zig rubbed his face and ran his hands through his hair closing his eyes tightly. He couldn’t believe his actions, he really hated cheaters and now he was one. But he didn’t regret it, just felt awful about it. Zig was going to have to do a lot of explaining, and in the end hurt someone he promised he would never. But it would all be worth it in the in the end, because he would have what he really wanted, Bianca.
Bianca propped her head up, elbow on the bed as she watched Zig sympathetically. “Yeah, that’s how I looked when I had to tell Owen that something happened with me and Adam,” she admitted with a simple shrug. Though she was slightly disappointed that he’d broken his grasp, she couldn’t blame him. Suddenly, a twinge of regret slowly crept into her stomach. She laid down on her back, looking up at the ceiling. She struggled for the words, knowing they were true but also not wanting to hear that truth hanging so vulnerably in the air. “You’re better off with her, Zig. Maybe once you get away from all of this, you’ll realize that. I’m not good for anyone. I’m too fucked up for anyone to get close enough to me. Tori doesn’t have baggage. She’s crazy about you. If you’re smart, maybe…maybe you should forget this ever happened,” she said with a pained expression. She shifted her body away from Zig, surprised at how difficult it had been to say those things to him.
Zig was a little disappointed when Bianca pulled away, but that didn’t last long. Her lips on his bare skin felt pure amazing, smiling in pleasure while she did. What Bianca didn’t know yet was there was a special spot on his neck that drove him insane, but just her kisses seemed to do that and more already. As soon as she got back up to his lips, he was all ready to kiss her again but she had other things in mind. She bit his lip, then pulled him closer than he thought was possible. It was unbelievable how hot she was being. After a while of passionate kissing, Zig forced himself to pull away. “If we don’t stop now, I won’t.” His voice was serious, but he still had a playful smirk on his face. Now he was breathing heavy and his heart was sped up to a point where he was pretty sure it wasn’t healthy. Zig wasn’t done with her for the night though, he wanted to be close to her still. It was hard for him not to go all the way with her, but he had some self control. It would be wrong to Zig if in there first make out session they went all the way.
Zig reached down for her hand and lead her over to the bed, doing a big jump onto it backwards. Pulling the covers back, he crawled under and raised them so Bianca could get in with him. “I know I may not seem like it, but I’m a cuddle sort of guy. Lame I know.” Zig let out a chuckle at himself, looking up at Bianca who now had make out hair which made him break out into a grin. Once in bed with him, he dropped the covers over her and laid down getting situated. Then he wrapped his strong arms around her small frame, cuddling up against her so they were facing each other. Zig wanted to see her gorgeous eyes he always seemed to get so lost in. “So….was this just a one time thing? Like a…take pity on Zig because you feel bad?” Zig asked with a hint of nervousness in his voice, but didn’t move his gaze from her eyes. It brought a horrible feeling to his stomach that her answer could be yes, and this would be the end of it. It would kill him, knowing what he wanted the most was something he couldn’t have. But it is better to have loved then lost than never loved at all, right?
Bianca’s head was dizzy, their movements seeming to blur together as Zig pulled away. Her chest heaved up and down delicately, her breath labored from the intense passion that accompanied the atmosphere. She listened to Zig’s words, surprised and frankly impressed by his superhuman self control. Bianca knew without a doubt she would’ve gone all the way with Zig. In a sense, it was like second nature to her. If the guy pushed a little, she pulled. It only made her stomach do that annoying butterfly thing all over again, seeing how Zig respected her enough to not take advantage of the moment. She nodded, though she knew she’d need to calm down her body some before she could completely agree with his decision.
She took Zig’s hand, dropping their grasp as he jumped backward onto the bed. She rolled her eyes playfully as he mentioned he was a cuddle person, although she couldn’t help but feel more attracted to Zig by this confession. She crawled into the bed, facing him as he wrapped his arms around her. Her eyes studied his, observing the way they seemed to dance across her features. People looking at her like this usually made her feel uncomfortable. Yet, she looked back at Zig, feeling strangely at ease. His question brought an abrupt halt to her thoughts, her heart pained that he even had to ask that. She didn’t blame him though. Bianca wasn’t known for her sincerity or ability to wear her emotions on her sleeve. “No, Zig…” she said with a reassuring smile. “I’ve been wanting to do that for a while now. The timing was just never right. The day on the tracks, when you told me you loved me…that completely ruined me, you know?” she said, not offering to explain what she meant by her own words. “But…I also know we can’t continue anything until you figure things out with Miss Pom Poms,” Bianca said sternly. She wasn’t in the business of stealing boyfriends. Not anymore.
Zig continued yelling at himself, in his head as he walked to the door. His actions were wrong, and he knew that but oddly didn’t regret it. The taste of Bianca’s sweet lips were still on his lips, licking them once thinking he would never have this taste in his mouth again. He didn’t know what this meant for their friendship, but he was pretty sure he messed it up again. But eventually he knew this was going to happen, he couldn’t resist her. Better sooner than later though. Just as he was about to reach for the door handle, Bianca pulled on his shirt which made him turn around. A puzzled look formed on his face, and even more when he saw a smirk on her face. Then she said how she didn’t ask him to stop, and his eyes winded a little. Being touched by her or touching her at all was heaven, his hand now resting on the side of her face. For a moment he froze up, thinking in his mind what he should do. After all he was cheating on Tori, but this is what he really wanted and needed. This was his dream for a while now, he had to go for it.
“Well then scratch that. Redo, and this time….” Zig raised his free hand from his side and gripped her waist tightly, pushing his body up against hers, which caused her to back into the wall. Then he got his face as close as possible with hers without their lips touching, “I won’t be pulling away.” Zig warned her with a sexy smirk, and a hushed tone. A million zillion thoughts ran through his head, but one stood out that was screaming kiss her you idiot. It was hard for Zig to realize she actually wanted him. Right after that, he couldn’t stop his urges any longer. Zig crashed his lips on hers once again, but this time more confidently. The kiss heated up quick, his curious hands rubbing down the sides of her body, pressing his body up against hers closing whatever gap was left between them. Zig kissed her with so much passion he didn’t know he had but she brought out in him. The taste of her lips intoxicated him to the point where he just kept wanting more, kissing her hungrily now. This was so perfect, now he was starting to believe sometimes life does work out in your favor.
Bianca’s mouth opened slightly, smirking as Zig grabbed her waist tightly, pressing her back against the wall. She felt a pulse of longing travel across her body as Zig lingered just above her lips. She bit her own lip, senses charged by Zig’s warning tone, coupled with his sensual smirk. She needed to feel his lips against hers again, and soon. It felt like an eternity before he finally connected their lips. She let out a relieved sigh, feeling like she’d been holding her breath until the moment he kissed her again. This kiss felt stronger, weakening her knees and unsteady her stance. She felt Zig’s hands traveling across her waiting skin, and she was pleasantly surprised by the sudden, confidant boldness that accompanied the usually reserved boy. She felt his body press tighter against hers, and her fingers curled around the belt loops resting at the back of his pants, pulling him against her in return. She felt the intensity of their exchange growing, and though Zig’s relationship with Tori was somewhere in her mind, it quickly began to fade away, replaced with her desire for him. She couldn’t tell if she’d hate herself for hurting another person. Somehow, the worry wasn’t in her mind. All she cared about was experiencing as much of Zig as she could.
She broke the kiss, moving her mouth to his neck. She playfully nipped at the skin, kissing along the crook of his neck and moving her hand to pull down the collar of his shirt. She scattered slow, intentional kisses across his collarbone, tangling her fingers in the short hair at the nape of his neck. She moved back to his mouth, biting his bottom lip teasingly before wrapping her hands against the back of his neck again, pulling him closer. Even though he was flush against her, she still felt he needed to be closer.
Zig had no mercy for Bianca, laughing at her when she squirmed and yelled at him. The tickling kept up, him struggling after a while to kept her under him. I was nice to just have fun for once and be carefree, because his life was full of non stop misery. Suddenly he was caught off guard, and Bianca flipped him over so she was on top of him. For a small framed girl, she had some strength in her when she needed it. His eyes widened in a little shock, “Damn…You really-” Zig was cut off by Bianca tickling him, and the uncontrollable laughter started. He would have flipped her back over, but her tickling him weakened his muscles. Being tickled was his weakness, which she had just found out. He couldn’t even get out any words, only tried to get out of her power. Eventually she slowed down and flipped them over, him being on top again. But this time he landed close to her face, both of them breathing heavy against one another. Then the room became silent, and something took over Zig. His eyes wondered to her stunning eyes, wondering how they could be so perfect. Then his eyes moved to her lips, and he couldn’t control himself. They looked so kissable, and he needed to have a taste. In a daring move, Zig leaned down crashing his lips up against hers. They moved in sync almost instantly, her lips tasting better than he imagined. After a few moments he realized what he was doing and pulled away abruptly. Zig removed himself from her, stunned at what he did. “I…I’m sorry. Fuck I can’t even be around you without…well doing that!” Zig was pretty much yelling at himself for being stupid, probably ruining their relationship all over again when they just fixed it. “I should go…” He said quietly and his head down, turning towards the door. Zig Novak just fucked everything up, again.
Bianca let out a squeal as Zig pinned her down again. Her voice was quickly silenced as she realized the proximity of Zig’s face to hers. He lingered over her, his breath tickling the sensitive skin of her lips. Her stomach flipped erratically, butterflies consuming it as she realized what she wanted at that moment. She wanted Zig to kiss her. She’d thought about it countless times, though she’d dismissed the thoughts as soon as they entered her mind. This happened for various reasons, from his relationship with Tori, to her relationships with Owen and Adam. The timing was always off, though she craved to have her thoughts played out into reality. Before she could daydream any further, Zig bridged the silent gap between them, crushing his lips against hers. The simple touch ignited her entire body, astonished by how good it felt. She’d kissed plenty of guys before, but this felt different. The electricity of the kiss was nearly mind-blowing, her lips moving perfectly against his. She was surprised when Zig suddenly broke the kiss, standing up and walking toward the door. She sat up, watching him as his gaze fell to the floor.
Bianca struggled to gather her thoughts. She observed Zig, a small smirk framing her mouth in spite of the situation. She rose from the bed slowly, walking to meet Zig near the door. She grabbed the only thing she could reach to get him to stop; the end of his shirt. She tugged softly, causing him to turn around. She stepped closer to him, her eyes full of mischievous passion as she gazed upward at him. “I didn’t ask you to stop, did I?” she said, her mouth still holding the smirk. She took Zig’s hand gently, intertwining her fingers through his as her palm had the top of his hand. She guided his palm to her lips, kissing it softly before placing it against her cheek. Bianca was becoming painfully aware of how natural all of this felt to her. For the first time, tenderness didn’t feel as forced as it had in the past. Her eyes locked on his, waiting for him to act.
Zig held his breath until she smiled, him letting out a big sigh of relief. It was scary knowing that Bianca could have been out of his life forever, for his stupid mistakes. His expression changed from worried to extremely happy, hearing that she wanted what he wanted for once. But his face dropped in confusion when she told him she wasn’t with Adam any more. On one hand he was sad, because she was probably upset about it. But on the other hand, he was cheering and doing a happy dance in his head because he didn’t like them together. Adam treated her wrong, and they always fought over everything. Plus…he thought he might have a chance now with her. A silly thought, but a true one wanting to be with Bianca more than Tori. “Oh….” Zig pulled his hands away and stood up, resting them at his sides. He didn’t know how to exactly react, so he thought he would go with the sorrow approach. “I’m sorry it didn’t work out.” He said as truthful as possible, actually being sorry about their downfall. That was all Zig was going to say about that, because it was a sensitive subject right now and he really didn’t want to hear about it honestly. Then he tried to get the mood happy again, leaning down to wrap his arms around her tightly. “I’m so glad….we are friends again.” He said with joy, a big grin across his whole face. Then he got an idea, “Bianca, I need to get you smiling…” Zig pulled away from her to look at her face, a wild smirk growing on his lips. Then suddenly he tackled her on to the bed and started to tickle her stomach, seeing an instant smile appear on her face. Oh, she was totally going to kill him.
She watched Zig stand up, expressing his semi condolences for the break up. She shook her head, crinkling her brow. “I’m…not. I mean, I could never be who he wanted me to be in the first place. I’m just someone that needs to be alone. It’s better that way,” she said with a shrug. “I just wish I hadn’t have hurt him like I did,” she admitted, feeling the sick feeling in the pit of her stomach again. Zig suddenly leaned down, enveloping her in a hug. She welcomed it, wrapping her arms around him and squeezing tightly. She breathed in his scent, surprised at how it dizzied her head. She hadn’t had physical contact in days, and it felt amazing. Zig always had a way of making her feel better, period. She cocked an eyebrow at Zig as he pulled away, saying that he needed to get her smiling. “And how do you plan to do that?” she asked teasingly, but her sentence was nearly cut off as Zig tackled her, causing her to collapse into a fit of giggles as he began tickling her. Her limbs flailed about, trying to gain some leverage, but each time she would raise up to attack him, she’d lose her ground as her back hit the bed again. “So…not…fair! Stop it!” she gasped through laughs, reaching around to try and hook her fingers into his ribs. She stopped fighting for a moment, hoping to catch Zig off guard. With a swift movement, she grabbed his wrists, flipping his back against the mattress as she straddled him, her fingers searching for ticklish areas on Zig’s body. She found a solid spot near his ribs, trying to use her legs to hold him down as she sought her revenge. “Not so fun now, is it?” she teased, though she was quickly losing her ground against Zig’s strong arms.